Praise the lord + love love mafan stuff

Finally passed through all the thing ( assignment, presentation, mid-term, CHRISTMAS EVENT)

Thx Lord... all have done n give all the praise n glory to you lord, lift ur name higher..

in this sem, i faced a lot..

I had conflict,

I planned to leave CF,

I blame God...

But, finally God once again brought me back to him..

let me even love him and serve him =)

Caleb, do u know that..

the feeling is getting gone...

but, i stil keeping 1 space 1 slot for u in my heart =)

you are still very importance to me.

I cant forget a single memories that we had..

I know that God is giving me some chance to start my couple life,

but I resisted it..I dont dare to.. because u really hurt me very deep

bz life

I hate bz life..

and hate myself!!

Now, I feel that I am apart from God..

How this could happen!! what a sadness things..

I love God, but I dont know how to love him..

I know I want to serve him.. but why I feel so suffering?

It is so difficult..

Why I like last time? just use my heart, a heart full of peace and faith..

Sorry, God..

Sorry..

I am so weak... and I am lose..

I know you are the true, you are the way and you are the life..

Lord, I need you.. to guide me..

I dont want use my way to live..

I want your way..

want the life you give..

I got lots of problem now..

esther..

i tot she is the 1 that will bring gospel to my family..

but is it wrong.. my mum started to ask me dont friend with her too much..

my mum dont really like her..

and she asking my mum&dad do thing for her..

christmas event

I really no idea.. so many restriction..

this cant that cant..

what should i do?

my faith is lose..

I question god..

and I hate myself...

my tears are dropped..

I dont know how~~~

I want happy life, peace from lord...

but I lose it...

here my life is suck...

I dont like..

Lord I want to seek you...

and I want you to know that

"I LOVE YOU!!!"