Praise the lord + love love mafan stuff

Finally passed through all the thing ( assignment, presentation, mid-term, CHRISTMAS EVENT)

Thx Lord... all have done n give all the praise n glory to you lord, lift ur name higher..

in this sem, i faced a lot..

I had conflict,

I planned to leave CF,

I blame God...

But, finally God once again brought me back to him..

let me even love him and serve him =)

Caleb, do u know that..

the feeling is getting gone...

but, i stil keeping 1 space 1 slot for u in my heart =)

you are still very importance to me.

I cant forget a single memories that we had..

I know that God is giving me some chance to start my couple life,

but I resisted it..I dont dare to.. because u really hurt me very deep

bz life

I hate bz life..

and hate myself!!

Now, I feel that I am apart from God..

How this could happen!! what a sadness things..

I love God, but I dont know how to love him..

I know I want to serve him.. but why I feel so suffering?

It is so difficult..

Why I like last time? just use my heart, a heart full of peace and faith..

Sorry, God..

Sorry..

I am so weak... and I am lose..

I know you are the true, you are the way and you are the life..

Lord, I need you.. to guide me..

I dont want use my way to live..

I want your way..

want the life you give..

I got lots of problem now..

esther..

i tot she is the 1 that will bring gospel to my family..

but is it wrong.. my mum started to ask me dont friend with her too much..

my mum dont really like her..

and she asking my mum&dad do thing for her..

christmas event

I really no idea.. so many restriction..

this cant that cant..

what should i do?

my faith is lose..

I question god..

and I hate myself...

my tears are dropped..

I dont know how~~~

I want happy life, peace from lord...

but I lose it...

here my life is suck...

I dont like..

Lord I want to seek you...

and I want you to know that

"I LOVE YOU!!!"

1st day of y2s2

French Class.....

in an interested language subject.

I love it XD

because the pronunciation so unfamiliar.

especially "quatre" read as ta ker

and I did deco booth with chealene,xw,jy,ff...

I knew something.. hehe..btw xw & ff

I took my dinner with chealene and jy at mz..

Now, I am so tired and so worry about tomorrow meeting..

I got my own idea. I scare I wont accept others.

I need your help lord...

the weird thing

by the time i chat with en, I feel happy no stress

by the time i chat with the one I loved,I missed, I feel so angry until faith..angry until cant breath...

I love him but why my attitude being like that?

I cant accept what he is trying to talk me..

What is happening now??

I know I still being stubborn..

A new semester is started tomorrow!!

A new semester is going to start tomorrow..
Wish that I won't sleep in the class again.. haha><>

& my lovely Christian Fellowship society(having 2 meeting in the 1week)..
I know God is with me and lead me through...=)

I feel sleepy now..

tomorrow I will go to french class alone..

everything just leave into hand of god..

I know God will lead me through..

Today, I woke up early than others day..

I don't know why I wake up..

maybe scare wake up late to sunday service.

At that moment, my brain no think about him whereas think about my dream..

what is my dream? I am the girl who no exactly purpose of life.

Yes, I got. I hope all the people will believe Jesus in one day.

but, this purpose make me don't know how to achieve it and my heart is cooling down..

I don't want this happen.. I want to keep my heart on fire.. I love God, I want to serve him..I have faith but no fire..(what a sad thing)

and today, i set a target or dream for myself..

I hope to travel all around the world..

no boy friend, no marry, but with god..

I tried to think what type of travel I wanted..

mission trip? yeah.. can serve god while travel

or just simple look through the world..

Don't know..

But at least I have my dream now...

I will try to work hard on it..

DOn't know this dream can last how long..

Today, invited a special speaker, 何海山..

really hope to bring my family and my grandma to church..

I bought a CD..

Hope God works and touches my family's heart..

Good night.. have a nice new semester..

Gambateh!!

不是必然的

幸福不是必然的；
机会不是必然的；
很多事不是掌控在我们手里

父母从星加坡旅行回来了，
没有他们的日子，
家里显得额外安静。

昨天和弟弟去mamak吃晚餐，
原来，弟弟不是讨厌耶稣，而是对他很陌生。
很伤感吧？做姐姐的没好好传福音给亲人。。
加油啊！！“一人信主，全家必要得救”
神的应许必会实现

搭伙食带来很多问题，
多到我也不知道如何解决
一个家庭的问题，竟然转到别一个家庭。。
怎么办？

muet的表现很差！

又到开课了
This semester will be a busy semester.
I took 4subjects on this semester.
Started feel stress..
May God bless..

Australia..
no hope ard.. TT
actually, i hope to be there,
but the air fare is quiet expensive and i cant get the promotion price at the first minute.
maybe God has his own way..

MUST HAVE AND OBTAIN A PASSION HEART TO SERVE AND TO LOVE GOD =)

Tuesday..

I feel happy today because the "king" cockroach have been killed..

Got nothing special today.. as usual..

Sien.. Bored..

MOst of my fren are worry about the MUET's speaking test ..

May god Bless us.. We need you lord.. =)

Christmas event

Today, ong just asked me something about the christmas event and it's remind me that I gonna have lot of things to do and lot of responsible on it...

I am the vice chairperson. and ong will not be around at the most importance period.. God... why treat me like this.. haiz... he will back to his hometown for 3weeks..

I feel scare..because I know it will bring alot of troublesome for me..haiz..

I know I will take over all the things to do.. and caused lot of stresses and pressures..

Actually, I'm quiet disappointed with the CF's committee.. like fang fang and natalie..

however, they are part of the committee but they seem to avoid themselves involve in any event.

I know why they do so..

is because they are too busy with their studies..

Actually, I'm quiet tired to organise event. Hope to be them..

Just say "No", then can avoid all the trouble.

But I couldn't do so...

I must serve god..

I am very clear with this point- serve god..

Hope this time

I will learn something from it..

My holy spirit can grow even more..

All the member willing to contribute their time, and man power.

Please

Dont Grab all the things to do..

Believe that others can do the best

lastly..

Please promise yourself

No matter what result you get,

must continue to serve god..

Dont give up or try to avoid it..

must have faith on it..

god will give the best to you..

=)